Did you get a chance to read some of “Hannah’s Hope: Seeking God’s Heart in the Middle of Infertility, Miscarriage and Adoption Loss” by Jennifer Saake? I read through the Introduction, Prologue (Her Story) and Chapter One. You can preview these sections for free at the books website:
Today I will just discuss the Introduction and Prologue, next week we will look at Chapter 1.
What an incredible journey this woman has been on. Her diagnosis was a bicornuate uterus (same as me), endometriosis and PCOS. Later she would learn about an autoimmune disorder and Luetal Phase Defect. Struggling for over seven years to have their first baby there were so many losses. Besides the miscarriages she suffered the adoption losses. I’m sure she will go into more depth later but I think this topic is often overlooked. It is a different kind of grief than a physical loss but it is a grief. An expected baby is not brought home to love. Adoption is a wonderful way to grow your family but there are many aspects that are overlooked. With a miscarriage it seems there is really nothing you could do. Nothing you could have done to ensure the future baby’s survival. It just happens. But with an adoption loss you always wonder if there was something you could have said or done to convince the birth mom that you would be the best parent for that child. What if you said or did something that changed her mind? We feel like we have more control over the loss than we do.
With all her struggles to adopt I was amazed that none of the adoptions materialized. She was able to conceive and carry two of her own biological children. You have to read her story. It is truly unbelievable. God was with her and comforted her throughout the journey.